I apologize if I have given the (very false) impression that to take the Sensualista’s Path is all fun, games and pleasure. In reality, while I do focus on the pleasurable, the beautiful and the fun, neither do I shrink from or ignore the pain, the suffering, the ugliness that is present in the world. I feel everything and sometimes that everything is far from pleasant. But then, how else can healing happen? That which is not felt, not seen, not acknowledged can not be healed. Sensual is “of or pertaining to the senses”; even pain is “of or pertaining to the senses” though you might prefer to avoid it.
For a time I believed my mission was to help women develop their “sparkle” and be seen so they can prosper in business. Until I began to realize I really don’t give a flying frell about business or surface things. The more I tried to push toward this end the less interested in doing the work I became. I avoided it like the plague. I eventually realized that I don’t give a sh*t about your business, I’m interested in you. Can you feel? Really feel every little thing, both the good, the not so good and the outright awful? You need to be able to feel it ALL in order to be truly alive, in order to know what lights you up, in order to know if you’re living with integrity or living a lie.
I frequent the deep places, the shadow realms. I want to know every part of myself intimately and that’s where I will guide you: your own Shadow realms, your own depths. As your guide, my aim is to inspire but also wholeness, to integrate, to help you align and grow. Walking the Sensualista’s Path is not for the faint of heart nor the merely curious. Such creatures commonly associated with moving between worlds frequent my dreams and the places around me: owls, ravens, snakes, rabbits (yes, rabbits; while they also symbolize fertility they are masters at hiding in plain sight, misdirection and live both above and below ground. Down the rabbit hole, anyone?) and occasionally spiders. With these as companions and guides it’s no wonder that my work is far from surface oriented. I go deep and am most comfortable in depth and shadow and that is precisely where I will take you.
Refusal to experience or acknowledge life’s unbeautiful shuts down the capacity to feel overall. Without the capacity to feel deeply there eventually comes the inability to feel at all and everything is surface. So, I face the unbeauties with *open hands and heart wide open, heal what I can, alleviate suffering where I can, pray for what I have no power to touch and give thanks for it all. While I love roses I acknowledge that even the rose has thorns, at least the most beautiful and fragrant ones do. Do I pretend they aren’t there and subsequently get badly jabbed while pretending there are no thorns or do I acknowledge the danger and behave accordingly? I may experience some pain but it won’t be unexpected nor is it likely to cause as much damage. I also have the option of removing the thorns, one not open to me pretending they aren’t there. Living the Sensualista’s Path is far from easy but for me it’s better than any alternative.
*open hands – to keep the hands open means to not cling, to keep open the option to leave or stay and to leave room for the Lady to pour out gifts to you; if your hands are closed and clinging you strangle that which might have been good and miss out on the gifts or aid that are piling up waiting for you to open to receive.