It’s Friday before Spring Break starts up (AT LAST) for my younger boys. I’ve had a great cup of pumpkin ginger tea, even though the season for pumpkins is long past – or a long way off depending on how you look at it. Still, something about the feel of the weather lately has put a taste for it into me and I’ve been indulging the pleasure. That’s the way I do things. I’m very pleasure driven. I’m definitely one of those people who aren’t motivated by abstract sillinesses. If it’s going to be ew and it’s something that really needs to be done (by me) then I’ll find some way to bring a modicum of pleasure to it. If I don’t have to be the one to do it then I’m guaranteed to find someone or some way else to get the task done….
Mmmm…. Pleasure. It’s not the same thing as fun, though fun is indeed pleasurable. I don’t much care if a thing will be “fun” in the general sense of the word, but I very much do care if it will bring me pleasure. A sense of joy and enjoyment. That is a requirement before I ever begin. How will this thing/task/person make me FEEL? Mind, body and spirit? If mind and body say “s’okay” but spirit says “NO WAY!” guess what I’m not doing. All aspects have to be in agreement. If they aren’t then I have to check in and see what the issue is before I move on. Sometimes it’s an old fear, some little thing trying to become bigger that needs nipping. Other times there really is a serious concern that has to be honored and addressed in which case I may continue to engage with the person/situation/thing or I may not, depends on what turns up in the process….
I am one of those people who is strongly emotional. It’s not that I am incapable of being rational; I am surprisingly very analytical. But that seems to have naught to do with the way I function in the world. I FEEL everything first and foremost. Even while analyzing something I most likely will go in the direction of my feelings. I think as a culture we have come to associate emotionality with irrationality. We worship the mind and thought over the wisdom of the body and emotions. We end up in whole heaps of trouble lots of times because of this. Emotions are our feedback system, letting us in on entire worlds of info our conscious mind has missed. The subconscious (who misses nothing) speaks in emotions and images, not words and lofty ideals. Each mode of operation has a place, a function. Neither must be ignored in favor of the other….
It’s now Sunday night before the end of Spring Break. A lot and not much has happened this week. Most of the “happening” has been internal. Lots of adjustments, clearing work and doing everything I can to raise my vibration and keep it raised. I began the daily habit of creating a blessing ball of light to bless my day going forth, smoothing my passage through the day. I also had my first pu-erh tea experience. It was luscious! A new tea to enjoy! It’s become my morning tea. The thing about it is I need to set a timer and let it steep only five minutes or it isn’t as tasty. The one time I did allow it to over-steep it tasted flat. So I’ve now taken my first steps into tea connoisseur land. What a big pleasure! So much to explore and enjoy! And none of the icky after effects I get from wine. Perfect.