Tuesday is the beginning of my 45th turn around the sun. Goddess, I can’t figure out how I got so many years under my belt! I could say I don’t feel any different than I did when I was twenty years younger, but that wouldn’t be true. I am more vibrant, alive and self assured than I was then. I have more energy and zest for living than I ever imagined I could have when I was in my twenties. What I don’t feel is old or even remotely middle aged, whatever that means. Maybe that’s due to all the inner work I’ve been doing these past years. Maybe it’s the happier diet I’ve been eating. Maybe it’s because I finally feel like I have a clue as to why I’m here. Maybe it’s a combination of all the above (my suspicion). Whatever it is, I feel more like I’ve grown younger or better or whatever one does when one starts out in one place and ends up some place so much better than where one began. (Ah, the many uses of the word ‘one’. Such fun!)
As I reflect on my last sun turn and prepare for the coming one, I find myself far more curious about life, the universe and everything than twenty years ago and eager to see what’s next, determined to make it even better than the last time. That makes the coming year damn awesome seeing as how this year was pretty fantasmadorical. I decided earlier this year that I would not be in the same place doing the same thing as last year this time and I’ve managed exactly that. Now it’s time to step up my game and go all the way. I’ve tested the waters and know I can swim not only better than I thought but extremely well. The water creatures are friendly and willing to help when I need it. Nothing like knowing there’s no way I can drown to boost my confidence! This is what it feels like to know in the very heart of myself that the Goddess has my back. It’s energizing! I’m going to enjoy the coming spin around the sun even more this time. The coming times feel like the beginnings of an endless party promising a bottomless supply of euphoria and I’m the guest of honor. At this rate I’ll fulfill my assertion that I will never get old. I may get older but getting old is entirely optional. It’s time to dance. Care to join me?