Just in case you get the (very wrong) idea that I’m breezing through the transition to raw, fear not! I am indeed merely a mortal. This past week has been challenging. Very challenging. I even decided to go out to dinner with my family & eat Chinese food yesterday. The food was good, but not nearly so wonderful as my mind made it out to be. I couldn’t seem to eat enough to be satisfied though I was very, very full. Bed time brought with it the old racing pulse & when I woke up this morning I felt just as stuffed as I had the night before & ten times as thirsty as I usually do. And no, this particular Chinese restaurant doesn’t use MSG ever & everything’s very fresh. Body didn’t care anyway. Not fun.
This all comes on the heels of me deliberately eating very sparingly & triggering emotional detox. Now I find myself bored with the very idea of food – ANY food. Cooked food smells unappetizing; anything non-vegan smells absolutely hideous. I’m hungry & don’t want to eat anything in my house, want to sleep all day yet have tons of underlying energy that will wake me up after an hour or so most times only to find myself ready to go back to sleep again in about half an hour. This for me is detox. The only thing missing this time around is the arm pits that smelled like I’d been pressing onions! Not looking for that to return & so far it seems to have no interest in doing so. WHEW! And I REALLY want some avocados!!! Of course all the stores I’ve been to lately only have really lousy, over-ripe ones. I’ll have to foray into the grocery world again tomorrow. I WILL have those avocados!
So, even though I know how to alleviate my food apathy, I’m feeling so apathetic at the moment I don’t want to bother. It’s okay. It feels pretty emotionally painful, but I’ve been through a lot worse; feeling good & being healthy are amazingly important to me. I may not have to deal with food addictions, but I have challenges of my own. It’s good to have challenges! They hone you, make you sharper & give you the insight to be able to help others. If it all came easy-peasy with no challenges I may not be able to guide as effectively as I’d like. Or I may flippantly decide later to ditch the lifestyle altogether because I never managed to clarify my commitment through testing it. As I get clearer I have more to offer & that is most certainly something to celebrate! 🙂